In Another Person's Shoes.

I feel lost, like nobody can hear me, like nobody understands me... I feel trapped in my own crazy jumbled thoughts. Did you ever have that feeling? The feeling of crying out into the night wishing someone would hear you, that no matter what you do nobody understands, ever... Want to know why people don't understand, because I finally figured it out. Nobody ever really 100% understands because they're not you & not in your exact situation, nobody can tell you how YOU feel. Want to know what I hate? I absolutely despise when someone looks me dead in the eye & tries to tell me how the hell I feel. Like what is that shit, and who are you trying to tell me how I feel? I also hate when people try and tell me I'm "too young to know what love is." I don't think I should really be "in love" at this age, because honestly after falling in love for the first time in my life made me realize how much it is to handle, it takes a lot of time, work, and dedication. But I totally disagree when people say you're too young to be in love or know what love is; because you can fall in love at any point in your life. Love doesn't have an age limit, and I know myself well enough to know how I'm feeling. I'm pretty sure someone doesn't know exactly how I feel, I don't tell you how you feel or how to live your life, so don't do that shit to me. These past few days I've felt so upset, drained, and invisible to just about everyone. Have you ever felt that way, if you haven't I hope you don't. It's one of the worst ways to feel, it makes you feel like you're nothing & nobody cares, and that you're not meant to be happy. But let me tell you, you are worth it and there's someone out there who's going to make you really happy. Honestly once you realize that you'll be a lot better off, you'll feel better and you won't have to constantly worry about what's going to happen next. But lastly there are people who care whether you realize it or not, in the end everything will be okay. All you need to do is stay strong and try to think positive, and I know at times it's extremely hard to do that but after a while if you keep convincing yourself that everything over time will get better and fall into place you'll start to feel a lot better because you aren't constantly thinking negative thoughts and putting yourself down. The only thing you can do is to deal with it, sometimes it hurts to just deal with it but eventually once you deal with it you'll start to feel better. You have to deal with the worst to get the best.